Saturday, January 7, 2012 - 6:00PM CT
This morning I prayed for God to remind me that he loves me. I don't think I asked how much.
I woke up around 8 this morning, which is early for me by the way, to get ready for a coaches meeting I had to be at at 9. After showering and getting out the door I headed to Brookhaven Country Club. On my was there is when I am pretty sure I prayed the prayer, "Lord, please today show me, remind me that you love me." My mom had had a meeting a couple of days before with our pastor at PCBC about wanting to rejoin the church. He told her he prayed a similar prayer every day. Finally today I prayed it.
I got lost on my way to the country club and was actually a couple minutes late. I was so worried about making a bad impression with one of the dads that was going to be there as well. I got there finally and he couldn't have been more awesome about it. I had met him once before and he was a super nice guy to begin with. The meeting went great and I got out of there in time to just barely make it to my 11am shift at the restraunt I work at.
The restraunt was very stressful today with some of my coworkers not being in good moods. I went abou my business but still complained aloud to other coworkers and mentally in my head. Just not the best day at work although all the customers I had were actually very pleasant and I was happy to serve them. That made the shift not as bad as I was trying to make it seem. During that shift when things weren't so bright I prayed the prayer again knowing that I was stressing out about things too much. "Lord, please remind me today that you love me."
When I got off work I went home to meet my friend about looking at apartments. My mom, also being our realtor, my friend and I went downtown to look at some places. It was a good experience and we got a lot out of it as far as knowledge of what we were looking at. It was cool with the three of us and happy we all got to go together.
When we got back home it was finally time to go see friends and relax for the night. I headed to Tom Thumb to pick up some beer for me and my friend. When I got back to the parking lot to head to my friend's new awesome apartment I sat there for a second. I thought, "It doesn't seem like God answered y prayer today. Did I miss something?" So I prayed the prayer again sitting in the parking lot with the radio off. I realized today wasn't even over and maybe there was something extraordinary he had in mind. I prayed a third time, "Lord, please show me/remind me that you love me."
It was like I had a revelation. What was I thinking! God had been showing me all day how much he loved me. When I say revelation, I mean that I can't even write down how many times throughout the day God HAD shown me. It wasn't one or two things, it was continuous! Sure, sin was still in my life and had invaded my day, but God revealed to me how much he loves me all the time. The story of my day that I have written above does no justice for accounting for the love God revealed to me when I prayed for the for the third time in that parking lot. I drove from Tom Thumb to Henderson Avenue dealing with some traffic with the radio off. The love I recalled through the day kept being revealed to me one by one, one thing after the other. I didn't get moved to tears but I got emotional and felt the Holy Spirit inside me more than I have felt in a while. I had to write it down. Now, I need to blog it.
On that drive to Henderson Avenue I felt God calling me to blog things like this. I haven't written in a long time. I realized that I have always felt a need to share God's love and still don't think I'm meant for the pulpit or anything. I think though that God has a way, multiple ways, this being one, to use me to share his love. I am still on my journey and will be for the rest of my life but if this is a step in the right direction then Praise Him! All Glory to God in the Highest!
